Over That Cool Phase

I used to long for a group of friends that all hung out with each other and I could always run to whenever I was feeling crummy or nap with whenever I felt like it. It just seemed, I don’t know, pretty cool to feel secure in a group of friends where you know for certain that you’re welcome. But when I am being invited to be with acquaintances, I feel like a huge outsider because my interests don’t align with theirs… Or anything really. My sense of humor, what I find to be news, my music, shows, etc. With that all different there wasn’t really much I could talk about with them.

It bugged me a little that most of my friends went to a different school and that they didn’t all hang out with each other. So whenever I’m with friends, it’s mainly a one to one type of thing.

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like this, maybe it’s a pisces thing because I read it on my horoscope before, but I absolutely hate when people feel bad for me. My best friend that does go to my school told me before that she felt bad that I didn’t hang out with a group of friends after school (our relationship is super weird, we don’t hang out at school but we’re best friends. I think it’s just because her other friends are really intimidating). That’s when I realized I didn’t want to look like a loner weirdo.

That isn’t really what I wanted though. Even when I’m invited to be with people, I’m not that happy. So what’s the point in having a group of friends?

I think I’ve learned to be content with my weird, scattered friendship with the people I love the most. The whole group of friends thing passed me and I don’t really care if I’m a loner weirdo. I’m just happy I’m able to connect with people who are really cool and have the same viewpoint as I do. The coolest thing is connecting with someone who looks at the world the same way you do.